Filed under: Personal experience | Tags: creative process, duality, eternal beings, experience, quantum, quantum physics, randomness, space time continuum, temporal experience, time, travel
Time does not exist. It is an illusion. We are all eternal beings having a temporal experience. Time catches us and folds us in, deluding us into thinking that we will never accomplish all we set out to do. Quantum physics is better at explaining it. And occasionally I have those moments where I am in two bodies, two places and I understand.
She is nothing like me, so when I step into her body, into her life for a moment, I am surprised at how it feels. I wonder where she goes when I am there. Does she know I am there? Does she blank out and later wonder what happened? Does she swap with me somehow and borrow my moments? It is disconcerting to realize the body I inhabit in those moments is not the one to which I am accustomed. She is darker, slim and glamorous, and high maintenance. And yet, we both shop for groceries and travel through airports. I wonder if we have ever encountered each other in person. Did we both step through the same airport in the same moment? Or would that violate some portion of the physics? So I go on, through the illusion of moments thinking about the next point in the space-time continuum where the lines cross and I will step into her again.
Filed under: Uncategorized | Tags: cleaning, duality, family, hair, purple, reading, torn, wishes, writing
Like you, I often feel torn in two directions (sometimes more).
Wanting to be more available to spend time with my mom and wanting to spend more time writing.
Wanting to grow my hair down past my waist like it was in my college days and wanting to chop it short and dye it purple just to shock people.
Wanting to spend more time on my music and wanting to read more novels.
Wanting to look for a new job and wanting to create that new job.
Luckily I never want to spend more time cleaning (although I sometimes wish I wanted to spend more time cleaning).